Hello! I'm the girl behind this website. My name is Ale. Pronounced like Alex, but without the X. I'm a 21 year old college dropout. But essentially, I'm just some girl on the internet. I'm in love with all things retro and vintage, particularly from the 60s to the 90s. I love rock and new wave music, also from the aforementioned time periods, I love kitschy eyesore decor (much to my minimalist mother's dismay), I love fashion, and I love the creative simplicity of old websites.
Why do I have a website?
Because I can and want to. I'm not all that interesting, I'm not particularly talented at anything, and part of me thinks I'm using up bandwidth that could've gone to some professional's portfolio website, but I still want to leave a piece of myself out in the world. I've been on the internet since I was way too young and I remember it being cooler back then. So having a little website helps me express myself and stuff. I see it as leaving my mark. If I die tomorrow, this would probably still be up and people could see what I was like.
I don't like the corporatized nature of social media and the modern web. I really only actively use Tumblr because I find it both hilarious and a bit more tolerable to use. Neocities is great because I can put myself out there but people can't really communicate with me one-on-one. You can explore and look. You can leave a comment on my profile or my guestbook, but it's more limited than social media, which I like. It calms me down a bit.
Why English?
English is my second language. My native language is Spanish, but I've been learning English since I was 4 years old. I started learning with cassette tapes and activity books we had at home. When I got Internet access, I played so many games in English and went on English speaking websites to access games and content about cartoons I liked. I eventually realized I was learning so much I started intentionally going to English speaking websites for pretty much all my online activity. This led to me discovering media that was never translated into my native language, and now 99% of my music library is in English, and most of my favorite shows never got a Spanish dub.
The bilingualism of it all is kinda what helps me separate my real life self from my online self. If I speak English online, no one who knows me irl will find me. It's like I'm two people in a way. I speak Spanish in real life. I speak English on the Internet. Simple as that! That said, If you start speaking Spanish to me, I will obviously reply in Spanish. It's not like a clean cut separation. You probably understand what I meant, and this last bit of the paragraph was unnecesary.
Ok, but who am I really?
Wish I knew! I don't have any particular passion in life. I live with my mom, my cat, and a roommate. I spend most of my time at home sitting around, and I only really go out after my paydays. I like going outside, but there aren't any parks in my neighborhood and I live next to a pretty boring city. At least by day, the nightlife seems pretty vibrant. We don't have a car so I can't go out at night when all the fun events happen. I don't know. I live in Venezuela dude, I don't have many of the cool American/European things at my disposal. But at least I have working public transportation, teehee. I don't have many real life friends, and I suck at communicating with the ones I have. And they all have the end goal of leaving the country forever, so I don't get too attached to them either.
I still try to enjoy life as it comes to me. I love to eat food, I love to go out alone. I like to take the bus to the city center, as chaotic and smelly as it is, and just walk up and down, window-shopping and people-watching until my shoes start digging into my heels. I'm not a fan of physical activity, but I love walking.
I like talking about myself too much for someone whose life has been characterized by doing nothing and slouching in front of the computer. I only really started liking myself and doing interesting things after I graduated high school. I was the weird autistic girl people bullied in school, I had few friends who didn't mind my presence but wouldn't notice if I was missing, I didn't do a lot of "teen" milestones and my school experiences led me to develop an irrational, deep disdain towards extroverts. (I'm sorry. I'm trying to work on that.) There's a twinge of melancholy to my life that will never wash away no matter how well-adjusted I become.
What am I?
I'm a girl as I've mentioned previously. She/her, but if you want to call me anything else I also don't care. They're just words, I just happen to really like the word girl, but like, in a genderqueer way, if that makes sense? If it doesn't to you, well it makes sense to me and that's all that matters. I like all gendered terms, I like calling myself a girl, I also like calling myself a guy. Even if I look like a girl most of the time haha. I like dressing feminine and wearing cool outfits and sparkly makeup, and I also like dressing masculine, with button-up shirts, baggy jeans, hats to hide my hair, and while I don't seek to "pass" as a man, so to say, I find it fun. Sometimes store clerks think I'm a teenage boy. I'm not too attached to my appearance so I like to change it up because it's fun. I don't care how people perceive me. I like the freedom that detachment gives me.
I'm just queer. I'm a lesbian pretty much, but I also don't actively seek out relationships. We'll see what the future holds. I don't care too much about my sexuality, I just don't like guys. I also don't think relationships should be so rigidly defined like society wants us to. I think you can kiss your friends and not have it mean anything. I like the word queer. I'm queer.
What do I like?
I love music. I'm no musician and I don't know a lick of music theory, but I love listening to music. I love new wave, rock, metal, ska, disco, funk, basically old music in general. I carry earbuds with me everywhere I go, even at home. I like learning about bands and their history and their scandals. I just like studying bands like bugs. To me it's all about music. I find other forms of media hard to get into, but I can easily let a band take over my entire brain.
My favorite colors are yellow, olive green, blue and orange. I love button-up shirts and wide leg jeans and boots and big dangly earrings. I have curly hair and it naturally forms itself into ringlets. My hair is my favorite physical attribute. I'm learning to take better care of it. I don't like most makeup but I like wearing red lipstick. I love cats. I love the beach even if I barely go there.
Useless facts about me!
• I learned to read and write at age 3. A teacher in preschool got mad at me for that.• I'm an only child.
• My dad wanted to name me Cleopatra.
• I lost my last baby tooth at the age of 15. It was my upper right canine.
• I learned to raise one eyebrow so I could be like Spock.
• I'm a cat person and I have always been!
• I've never seen snow.
• The first flash game I ever played was "Alice Hair Dresser" on gamesgames.com.
• Remember when Twilight Sparkle x Mordecai was a meme in 2021? Well I was part of the original Mordetwi DeviantArt group in 2013.
• I'm the only girl out of all of my cousins.
• I almost developed a gambling addiction at the age of 2. (Long story)
Why did I write all this?
This about page has been through so many rewrites and changes that if you've stuck around since I started the site when I was 16 you've probably assembled a weird portrait of me. This word vomit will probably not be permanent, and is subject to change because I am subject to change. I'm the webmaster, that's what matters. I simply enjoy talking about myself.
